It Will Not Be Easy.

This is the motto of my adult life. In high school school - work and grades came easy to me and rarely needed to study for anything. Other things were not so easy and I avoided them religiously- social events and interacting with people outside of my circle for example. The whole perfectionism trap- if I didn't think I could do it perfectly I just wouldn't even attempt it.I talked about this a while ago (being a recovering perfectionist), but I'm starting to see a future before me that I really want to pursue. I'm excited about work and what I can become... but I can feel my fears of failing and lack of perfection creeping into my thoughts. I feel excited in a moment and then... doubt myself and everything I can be. I feel really corny writing all of this down- but maybe if I feel stronger when I admit it.Anything that is awesome and exciting and better will not be easy to achieve- its like exercising. Health and strength are hard earned and fought for and will not come in a single day (or diet pill)- no matter what any infomercial or magazine ad says. About two months ago- I committed to doing the Insanity program. I have only missed two days from the program since I started... which means I'm pretty much torturing myself with these workouts for six days a week. When I'm in the middle of a workout I kind of just want to curl up in a ball and die... Just starting the workout... putting on my workout clothes and putting the dvd in the tv can be really difficult. I feel kind of awesome though having committed and actually followed through- I am definitely stronger and healthier than I was before (I can skip the elevator at my condo and not feel like my lungs are going to explode anymore).Those horribly difficult, bad-word-inducing workouts have been so worth it.I have a strong feeling that life is going to be like that- the milestones and achievements that I fight for will be worth it. Fear of failing is going to be part of the deal... wanting to give up at some point along the way seems like a guarantee... but it will be worth it all.I T   W I L L   B E   W O R T H   I T   A L L